un·apol·o·get·ic adjective \ˌən-ə-ˌpä-lə-ˈje-tik\ : not feeling or showing regret or shame : not apologetic. I have never used this word more in my life, than I have in the last month. I started to feel that word creep up when I … Continue reading
This song has been completely ruining me lately.
At our Good Friday service I struggled to sing any of it with our worship pastor, because I was a crying mess.
When I talked to our lead pastor Andi about doing this song last week to go with her “Forgiven” message, a tiny part of me was hoping she’d say no, because it overwhelms me (in the best possible way).
Thankfully, grace covers my emotion when I need to lead others, but man, I am so wrecked by His love. It makes no sense. It is good and abundant and covers us when we are both ugly and beautiful. When we are something to be proud of, and when we are not. When we are forgiving and unforgiving. When we are holy, when we are worldly. When we are kind and when we are mean. When we are generous and when we are uncharitable. His love always covers us. His love is always overwhelming.
I was listening to the Brooklyn recording of worship on my way to our Union Square service last night and I had an image pop into my head. It was nothing crazy, just an image of what the song is saying, but once again, I cried.
I saw myself at the foot of the cross. Beautiful, whole, and clean, wearing white and flowers, the perfect version of me, crying on the ground, being comforted and embraced by a bloodied, beaten and crucified Jesus.
That might sound a little brutal, but that’s what He did for us. We are beautiful and perfect and whole because of the cross. It is incredible, and I am undone.
And this is why we worship. How could you not? How could you contain a love like this? How could you not be on your knees? Once you know, you are never the same. Once grace, mercy and love catches you, you are never, ever the same.
God is so so so so so good.
A handful of my worship team did Bethel’s WorshipU over the Fall.
I took so much away from it, but one of the things that has continued to stick with me the most, is one of the last sessions I watched.
I quickly fell behind in WorshipU, busy work/life made me choose to skip a few sessions, and I skipped a 2.5 hour worship session, led by Sean Feucht.
My friend Tim pointed out a section that made the entire thing unmissible, and I’d have to agree.
Sean was talking about why he worships, and his answer astounded me.
“We’re totally inebriated and intoxicated with the beauty of who He is, we can’t help ourselves.”
It floored me. It is the most beautiful answer. And it begged the question: How often is that MY answer?
Our worship should always come from that overflow. Regardless of life’s current situation. We should always be absolutely in awe of who HE is, in every circumstance.
This post is a simple one. I just wanted to share the thought, because it was incredibly impactful for me, even months later.