This song has been completely ruining me lately.
At our Good Friday service I struggled to sing any of it with our worship pastor, because I was a crying mess.
When I talked to our lead pastor Andi about doing this song last week to go with her “Forgiven” message, a tiny part of me was hoping she’d say no, because it overwhelms me (in the best possible way).
Thankfully, grace covers my emotion when I need to lead others, but man, I am so wrecked by His love. It makes no sense. It is good and abundant and covers us when we are both ugly and beautiful. When we are something to be proud of, and when we are not. When we are forgiving and unforgiving. When we are holy, when we are worldly. When we are kind and when we are mean. When we are generous and when we are uncharitable. His love always covers us. His love is always overwhelming.
I was listening to the Brooklyn recording of worship on my way to our Union Square service last night and I had an image pop into my head. It was nothing crazy, just an image of what the song is saying, but once again, I cried.
I saw myself at the foot of the cross. Beautiful, whole, and clean, wearing white and flowers, the perfect version of me, crying on the ground, being comforted and embraced by a bloodied, beaten and crucified Jesus.
That might sound a little brutal, but that’s what He did for us. We are beautiful and perfect and whole because of the cross. It is incredible, and I am undone.
And this is why we worship. How could you not? How could you contain a love like this? How could you not be on your knees? Once you know, you are never the same. Once grace, mercy and love catches you, you are never, ever the same.
God is so so so so so good.